Motivated.... Let start over....

Today is Tuesday, Feb 2nd. This sounds like a good day to start taking myself seriously. A good day to stop being weak and giving into temptation. A good day to start caring about my health and paying attention to what I put in my mouth. I am going to go back to eating natural foods and logging my calories on Sparkpeople.com. I am the only one who can change myself. I am responsible for my own actions and what I eat. I am going to do this. My goal is 100 pounds down from my highest weight before my 31st birthday. That makes my goal weight 175. 75 more pounds to go. I can do this, I will do this... and it all starts today. Welcome to the new me!

Here we go

I am taking myself and my health seriously now. I signed up for parkpeople.com again to log my calories and exercise.... I know I can do this! I need to fight through my cravings.... That is when I slip up the most. I know that I am strong. I know I need to be healthy and I know how to do this! I am doing this.

I am going to lose 50 pounds by my 31st birthday, January 9th, 2011.

I want to accomplish this by taking one day at a time, Making my health a priority. I will workout daily, drink 2 nalgene bottles of water, Eat proper portion sizes, make better snacking choices, cook healthier meals. I will avoid preservatives, caffiene and try to eat only whole foods. I want to be the healthies I am able to be in my 30s and keep my family healthy as well! I CAN do this. I AM doing this!

A Trying week

I wanted so much to continue the momentum I had last week but it has been trying. We went out to dinner to applesbees. I should have have the weight watchers menu, But I didn't We got a 20 piece wings to share, then I had a salad with the crispy chicken on top... Sigh... when will I ever learn. I hopped on the Wii fit yesterday and I was up 2.5 pound from 2 days prior to that. Lets just hope that was water weight and that it didn't stay with me. I weigh in tomorrow at WW. I have not been drinking my water and I have not been logging my food. Seriously! Why can't I stick to the smallest goals? It's like the moment my life get's busy I lose track of everything else. The house gets dirty, I eat poorly, I am in need of some serious life management skills. On the bright side, I did would out yesterday and am super sore today. I did a workout on my new fitness coach Wii game. I can't believe what a good workout it was! I am off to work today for a few hours but maybe I can get another workout in tonight. I am recomitting to my 2 goals for this coming week. I need to make them habbit before I can add more! talk to you soon!

Results!

I Lost 4.6 pounds at weight watchers this past week. I needed this so bad! I am more motivated to continue eating well and getting some exercise in. I am writing down all my fods and drinking my water. This sunday I will make some new goals, Like perhaps starting to use points or really making exercise a habbit. I am so happy to be heading in the right direction now!

Still no results

"You only live once, Why not live as healthy and vibrantly as you can?" - Denise Austin



I can't believe that I am still not taking myself seriously. I can't put my finger on it. I get supermotivated one day and then the next I am cramming cookies into my mouth. It's my fault for having the cookies in the house when I know I am lacking Will power. I should send then to work with Will. He has sooo much more will power than I do. Also, my portion sizes are out of control. When something tastes good I don't want to stop eating it. Ugh... this is so much harder than I ever expected. I think I am trying to change too much too fast. I am not working on small goals to build life long healthy habbits. I need to start somewhere. I need to drink my water, every day, and log my calories. Perhaps I should just focus on there first.... Hold on while I go get my water bottle....





Ok, One bottle down, one to go!!!





I will drink 2 Nalgene bottles of water daily... That's 4 glasses per bottle. That meets the WW goal.





My other goal for this week is to logg EVERYTHING that I eat. Bites, tastes and nibbles included! I can't tell you how much I just grab something, eat it and not even stop to think about it. If I can limit the mindless eating and focus on 3 meals and 2 snacks, I think I will be well on my way to making it a healthy habbit! Hold on while I go find my tracker.....





Can't find it but I did find my motivation journal. I will keep track of my food in there for now.





I am excited to start holding myself accountable. I do not want any more weighins where I have gained weight. I just will not tolerate it anymore! I am 30 years onld tomorrow and my 30's are going to be my healthiest years yet!





I am going to stick to these 2 goals for a week and then add a new goal. I can do this!

Happy New Year!

Every year I bombard myself with new years resolutions. This year is no different, but I am trying to keep them to small changes that I know I can accomplish. Like working out 5 minutes a day, keeping a journal, reading the bible daily and going to my WW meetings every week. Above all this is the year I am going to start taking care of my body and treating it with the respect it deserves.

For breakfast this morning I made some home made banana nut oatmeal and it was really yummy. I have yet to log it into the WW website but my guess is that it was around 10 points. For lunch I am going to have a turkey sandwich on wheat and dinner either stew or soup. I am wondering if I log the whole days points ahead of time it will help me to stay on track and not splurge when I get home from work.

When Olivia wakes up from her nap we are off to the elliptical. I know I am only commiting to 5 minutes but I know once I get going, I know I can usually go a little longer. I like this no pressure resolution stuff!

Till next time!

-Emily

One heck of a weekend!

Last time I worked was Thursday. I was so pumped about my blog! I did the stairs at work twice and I told a whole bunch of people to check in on me and read my blog... So far, not a single one has. Just makes me realize even more that this is my battle, I have to be accountable for myself, and if I have not one single follower for my blog, I am am still reading it. I am still on this journey, I am the one who has to look in the mirror, and I am the one who is going to succeed...

Friday was a rough day, Olivia was needy and I did not get much accomplished at all. Will (My husband) and I did go out and buy a Nintendo Wii.... He wanted it for the snowboarding, I wanted it for the Fit board and biggest loser game.... We ended up buying those on Saturday... our Christmas present to each other. I am excited about using it, now just to find the time!!

Saturday was my mom's annual holiday girls only martini party. We started the morning by going to weigh in at weight watchers first... I was so upset while we were driving there. I knew I had gained weight. I had not been in two weeks. I had not exercised like I promised myself I would, I had not logged my calories, I had not drank water.... It's like I had forgotten all the basics. My mom weighed in first and she had lost 5 pounds in 2 weeks. I kept thinking that she had lost it and I had found it. I weighed in and ended up only gaining 1.2 pounds. Not nearly as bad as I thought but still, Come on Emily..... I am officially THE SAME WEIGHT that I gained WW at 7 weeks ago..... so sad... I am just 100 bucks poorer.... Why am I waisting my money if I am not going to even try? do I think if I pay the money someone else is going to do the work for me? Or if I pay the money, the weight is just going to disappear? I don't know why I let myself fail every time. It needs to change, that much I know.

The rest of the weekend after my meeting was a blur of martinis, PMS-ing, chocolate candy, unhealthy snacks and more martinis.... Sunday we went out to Fuji for hibachi dinner and I used the and thought " I blew today anyway, why not go all out!" and pounded a pile of caramel pretzel candies for dessert... So sad.... I am ready to change..... I need to take myself seriously... I need to get healthy.... I am ready to get fit for myself and Olivia!

Today is Monday and I feel like I am finally in the right mind to take my weight loss journey seriously.... Lets do this!

My plan for today is to track everything I put into my mouth and drink my 2 nalgene jugs of water. I did great for breakfast, I had my Oatmeal and didn't even add the brown sugar this time. For lunch I am going to have Subway, my snacks will be a pear and a granola bar, and for dinner brown rice and left over pot roast.... I am going to do this, one day at a time. I WILL HAVE A WEIGHT LOSS THIS WEEK AT WW!